victoric breathe - art of living

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Never knew being empty and hollow was a blessing until i got myself enrolled in the happiness program of the art of living. I had this vision of having this real pursuit of happiness until i got lesson-ed that being happy in what we do was important rather than finding one. I felt like i was being the sherlock holmes my whole life and it was me detecting, finding happiness and quantifying it as immeasurable or just as a limited edition when pursued.  

little reflection on my mind & me- A medical degree itself was challenging and at the end of basics I did lose all my sanity lol. I had a constant fear always hung in the bottom of my heart and it just made me so restless at points where i would be numb on what i was going through and most of the times i pretended to be who i was not and let myself feel okay when i was struggling inside. I would want to be gentle to my surrounding but i had been so harsh on myself knowing the fact that i didn't derserve kati kura that i feel so pity for that shreeya ani at times little proud also that i remained to hold my hands with blessings and learnings over grudges and regrets perhaps move forward in life which brings me to today's date where i get to seek more and feel a lot better.

Waking up at 5 ani getting ready to go to the center where baba and i, on a scooter ride on a less chaotic roads of aesthetic yellow street lights was so ramailo to start the day. The rush of cold morning wind and heart so warm with a grateful feeling. The people I met there were so nice, everybody so open and friendly, there was such a great sense of comfort and a very homely feeling which on the first day nai made me click that this is going to be fun dude. Ani I woke up with an excitement to visit the center also because of the positively entwined atmosphere it did attract me.

Meditation, yogic procedures and activities engaged us with a lot more interactive fun sessions. While doing Sudarshan kriya, in mid there would be times where i would be very impatient ani panic a little ani then i slowly put myself back to place and be settled with calmness. This was a virtue that everything would be fine with time ani even be a lot better. All the six days, my mind was so light and clear and my heart was empty and hollow. As mentioned above i claim that being empty and hollow was a blessing because most of the times i carried my heart with a lot of not my necessity things. Now, i do feel a lot better (touch wood) and i am hollow and light hence it has given me a space where i own my spark and practice gratitude.

I will miss all the people I have met there. Everyone came from different backgrounds but a same purpose.  All the little chitschats with didi dai ani uncle aunty, no feeling of strangers but of family. I even got to do a social service as well and so many one or the other fun activites from where i heard a lot of stories and i also got the opportunity to be a storyteller. It was fun overall, my heart filled all with nyano memories from our sano aol family.

Lastly, thankyou ojjs for the recommendation, it was a fab experience. 
If you are reading this ani you want to experience it then i would like to encourage just go for it and have fun.
peace.




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