new beginnings?

So, its 30th of Chaitra, the last day of 2079 and 2 hours left for a brand-new year. Being Nepalese and belonging to the Newari community, we have like three new years' coming along our way -English, Nepali and Newari (Nhu daya vintu na). So sarcastically, for some of these lazy bones we can always have our resolutions ready and if not in practice, patiently wait for few months and yes again a fresh new chance to redo the written decisions. Sounds not a big deal for us and yes, after all it is an expansion of this modern-day struggle-procrastination. Okay so, why do we make certain resolution? Well, the answer that my first row of brain cells got is that- the first day of a new year is considered to be a "shubha din" or a good day to start new beginnings and there will be possibility for the continuation of good work ahead. As it is in practice, false or true for me in this particular day I will definitely be flooded with some spiced up old rules, new targets all set to be ready in my chapter 18 diary. So, is it really a new beginning?

Basically, from my perspective it is somewhere a new beginning, a new chapter to be turned and all the moments that we will fetch in this year, will be labelled under this particular year. A new beginning might be misunderstood in some context as it doesn't have to be a complete transformation of your personality of today but rather you evolve as a person steadily and for real put efforts to be the better version of yourself. Like most of us, if we struggle with sleep patterns, we try to be a morning person and we try to be the earliest bird in the town for this day. Right 24 hours for the next sun rise and you woke up right after you hear your neighbors whistle of pressure cooker and sun set all up. Ughhh, this feeling gets on your nerve, and we feel like being stuck on the same old loop just this helpless dude. Whom to blame? Shall I blame my overestimated resolutions or probably myself cause i am paying the price of not listening to my inner gut feeling and trusting the heavy words conveyed by my comfort zoned comfy brat in my head - 5 mins more darling? *chaos* 

The major learning for me this year was to know that your problems are always going to be smaller than you and don't be harsh upon yourself. Trust and be true to yourself, start steadily, not to be harsh upon yourself, focus on what you have and be patient for your results. The most beautiful line that I've learnt from Bhagwat Geeta is the saying of Lord Krsna to Arjuna- "Focus on your karma and don't be afraid or don't even look after the result, working hard is only in our hands not the result" This line is so well executed because most of us we burden ourselves from the result and the pressures it holds which inhibits our focus from the main purpose and this specific fear weakens our hand even to start. So, at the end it is all about accepting you and being sufficient at the end of the day, doesn't matter if i messed up today. Going back to the broken old bridges to nowhere will take me nowhere but if i do look upon building a new bridge and working upon it not impulsively but consistently every day will destine me to a good place. As read from the famous book "atomic habits" 1.01^365 = 37.8 over 0.999^365 =0.03 being 1 percent better every day results a profit of 37.8.  So, chill bro we will fix everything again and there's much to do in life. One day or a week or months or may be years of imperfection has nothing to do with your newly constructed solid thoughts of positivity and again never late to start again so be chill pill, enjoy every little details of life, be yourself, be happy without any validation and enjoy being this main character of this chapter in your life. Happy new year. not necessary to be read exact at date 1 cause it unfolds a new year every time you add new positive shift in your perspective.