journaling the transition of a little girl ripening into womanhood

Representing the female community of this twenty first century, i feel humble and grateful for the opportunities that i could fetch. As going a little back and narrating the story of my Maa back to 40s or 50s the lifestyle and responsibility of women were so different. Back then there was sexism and patriarchy of course in the peak and literacy of women were just about to be written in the laws. My Maa, she carried like seven children and her responsibility or life was limited in the care of family and other thoughts or dreams wouldn't even grow. Even knowledge of periods and hygiene of women were never the talk of the town. It was the beginning of revolution where rights of women were just getting attention. Coming back to the generation of my mommy, well she got education with this her thinking and involvement in matters of living is as equal to my baba. Baba, he said that the day after they got married, he sent mom to tuition as she was in the verge of completing her master's degree. The way my baba really encouraged mommy to learn more and get herself a position as like the men next door is applaudable. We see how in these few decades, there is a voice for equality and equity which has led so many women to grow and be all-allys (financially, socially) independent. Talking about my personal experience, in my corridor there was never a thing called discrimination. I was always as equally treated as my brother and most importantly my opinions were heard. I have always felt really grateful to be a part of this family where i could learn, get taught and be empowered. I have this privilege and voice so i could use this for my fellow sisters who are still battling with the narrowed vision of misogyny. 

So, what does it feel like being a woman? Being a woman is a wonderful feeling. Getting dressed up, being oneself and acquiring good things is beautiful. Receiving compliments, being goofy and full of emotions. Also having a brave side being equal and mentally strong enough to less care about opinions. Waking up to skin care and fragrance of perfumes defining you and dancing on your own rhythm. Working out, doing yoga taking care of yourself and your loved ones. Every little action of being a woman ignites a spark in myself. But with this i am beautiful but i dont like to get followed or eve teased, if i am bloated or physically fit i dont like getting compared to stereotypical feminine body, yes i do pass on intellectual conversations and you would still want me to be this cute dumb human, yes i want to contribute things to my parents but still you question when my departure to another home is, i wear dresses that i like or am comfortable in but still i receive advices on what to and what not to, i am an introverted anti-social human loving my personal space but still you want me to scoot in when i am at my worst, if i am a big talker and i laugh my heart out loud but still you continue to bash upon me. To those questioning and giving uninvited opinions you do deserve a humble reply from all of the women who were better, living their best life that we neither want nor care about your opinion. If you want envy towards our path, we will let you with kindness and more power from top of our trajectory.

Context on feminism, abuses- Within this evolving feminism I do feel very underwhelmed when I see this society encouraging men and their toxic masculinity which is continuing to portray absurd actions and the followings, they hold consider it to be 'cool' and are misguided as well. Like recent happening of certain celebrities who were in legal charges of sexual abuse are celebrated and granted a grand welcome as if they did some heroic actions. I am sorry to express this but those huge blind fans following they have viewed this case with only one perspective. The other opposition who gave their allegation the whole society portrayed in built stories and defamed the victim lower than what a human could stoop. We are in this society which is really scary. Some of our media, the news dweller sadly tend to grow and strengthen perverts and pedophiles. If a certain celebrity abuses you next time, then we learnt from these cases that it's better to shut up or we ourselves are going to be defamed. Domestic violence and rape cases have layers within and at last all the blame goes to the girl because she got birth as a girl. I am really sorry for all the younger sisters who had to get into abuse at a very young age. I am sorry for what happened to you but hopefully the lesson that you are going to impart to another girl remains impactful and you both stand stronger. Be brave girl, raise your voice and don't let your anxious side cripple cause this story will push you to be in a far better version of yourself. Everything is being observed by the almighty and the book of fortune will write a nasty destiny to the one who abused you. Additionally, I certainly respect laws and trust the process that it prevails the truth and at the same time being a fellow feminist i would not encourage pseudo feminism where we want to be the superior of all. We are here for equality and justice not to be the dominating ones calling men as dogs, passing filthy statements or anything that suppresses the dignity of any gender. Even false accusation is as equal as committing crime so no sympathy for the unlawful acts.

Lastly, women today and sisters next door i am proud of us, for being a heartfelt humble being and empowering ourselves with good deeds. May the solidarity of female community being shoulders to pain and listeners to grief continue to grow. Stand taller and stronger.