dear diary

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 I want to let you know that you are an amazing human. As a pov from that lil shy 8-year-old, you should know that she is happy with you, no matter where in life you are and proud of you. There will be challenges, failures, hardships, mental breakdowns and so much of it coming but i know you will gracefully conquer this path. I believe in you as you were always this very hardworking, determined curious, happy human also a lil underrated as you really showed less of your flaws, goofiness, ideas, creativity lacking confidence. But its okay no regrets in life. I forgive myself and I move on ahead to learn more of life and always aiming to be sufficient at the end of the day. I am grateful for every little things, people, emotions, this life and entirety of universe. I have my goals and targets written but to check them out i really hope to limit myself in the system on it and not just dreaming about it. I don't think i am really born to be a dreamer but actually a realist, an experimenter who is not going to be impulsive for a point of time and vaporize the impulse run with time but a hustler who remains grounded to what i have on my hands, plan, work and complete. With this determination i will continue my living ahead and would always offer myself abundant love and self believe "yo gurl, i believe in you. don't break my heart" in between. Accepting reality and being rooted even if i fail in certain things, i would remind myself that this is not the end and there is much to do in life, restarting with a fresh beginning, strong mindset and double the hustle. Cause we know there's miles to go before we sleep. so chill, your amount of stress ain't generating any useful energy. Feed yourself with good foods and good moods. Believe first in yourself and your work then leave the rest in god.  

Lastly, i love you and please take care of yourself. Manifesting being happy, healthy and having a strong mindset. also contributing happiness, care, laughter and smiles to the world around.

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