monologue w shreeya

Waking up with hatred towards oneself, -i was never this human, living with the past bitter experience and forgetting to cherish the beautiful ones -i would never do this to me, shedding down tears for the fleck of mess -i was never taught to be this weak, mental exhaustion, anxieties -i would never know its meaning and never would i ever accompany them, mind cluttered with heavy noises, can't dos, unusual thoughts -i would never let myself swell in learning more, melancholy mask facing the world and this feeling of having a void within -i would better skip this adulting process and always be a child; contended and sufficient. A minor now being a legal adult and having this whole of transformation in every dimension of life- this is something for a 'change' trying to fulfil the necessity of it i write.  The art of forgiving and healing. Time is inevitable and so is death both of them have no mercy towards you. One will take all the form of memories and the other will take t...

 I want to let you know that you are an amazing human. As a pov from that lil shy 8-year-old, you should know that she is happy with you, no matter where in life you are and proud of you. There will be challenges, failures, hardships, mental breakdowns and so much of it coming but i know you will gracefully conquer this path. I believe in you as you were always this very hardworking, determined curious, happy human also a lil underrated as you really showed less of your flaws, goofiness, ideas, creativity lacking confidence. But its okay no regrets in life. I forgive myself and I move on ahead to learn more of life and always aiming to be sufficient at the end of the day. I am grateful for every little things, people, emotions, this life and entirety of universe. I have my goals and targets written but to check them out i really hope to limit myself in the system on it and not just dreaming about it. I don't think i am really born to be a dreamer but actually a realist, an experime...